The sun came over the mountain in just the same way it does every morning. The Stellar Jays started chattering about their days. I watched a few small clouds form soft, grey shadows with bright glowing edges against the cool, dark blue sky. I knew today I would have to sit down and finish writing what I started a month ago.
I sipped a hot caramel coffee, the same as every other morning. I felt the chill in the air that reminded me, Winter is not far off. As I sat and thought about the task for today, I knew it would be the same for me. I would write and cry so hard I would stop. Today I had to complete this, I had to push through the tears and allow myself to remember and cry and let it out.
Something stirred across the yard and forced my gaze from heaven to earth. It wasn't our beautiful 15 and a half year old Princess Mollydawg. She used to slowly amble up the small hill towards her favourite spot near the fenceline. She knew just where to find the best new blades of morning grass. It would soothe her tummy and allow her to begin her day in less discomfort. She was old and not well and it took longer for her, but she'd get there. Then she'd just stand a few feet away from me and we'd watch the sky and yard together. Today it was Lady May coming up the hill to lay at the top with me. She is taking her place.
I felt my mug warm my hands this morning like it has for the last few
mornings. Everything seemed the same. Yet in the quiet morning, I know,
it's not. It hasn't been the same since the morning daddy came up the
hill and stood with us. He wasn't going to work that day. We were going
for a long drive.
That day a month ago, Molly seemed to sense the pain in our hearts and looked up at her daddy as if to say, "Let's go for my last car ride
today daddy. Please don't cry. I can't keep going on this way.
I need some peace. My body is so tired and it's beginning to hurt me now. I really just
want to lay in your arms and fall to sleep Daddy. Let's go for a drive
today. Please?"
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| Please don't cry daddy. I've had such a good life! I'm just tired now. |
Our hearts still ache and we're still sobbing when we let ourselves think about our darling, daring, beautiful Princess MollyDawg. We know the pain will get easier for us to bare. We know it was her time to leave us. For now our pain is so very strong, its difficult to bare. She is so terribly missed!!
Thank you so much to Cheryl and Dave, for the absolutely beautiful Rainbow Bridge card. We have never seen anything like it. It brought tears of course. Your thoughtfulness is so welcomed. One day we will meet and hug in real time!
Our hearts hurt so bad, even though we know she is resting and she's
with the buddies she has loved to play with so much. We are still in
grief and walking one day at a time.
Yesterday daddy took another long drive. This time he drove alone. He drove to Cache Creek Veterinary Hospital to receive our Princess Mollydawg's urn. We held the urn close to our hearts and cried and tried desperately to feel her essence. We know she is all around us, yet we still wish we could hold her again. Our beautiful girl, The Best Princess Ever!
She is home and will never leave us again. I can not write any more.
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| Our Molly The Best Princess Ever 13/04/05 - 22/09/20 |
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| You have gone ahead and nothing is the same Leaving paw print on our hearts that always will remain |
Thank you once again to all the caring staff at Cache Creek Veterinary
Hospital. We know you gave our girl the dignity and respect she rightly
deserved as she passed over Rainbow Bridge. Special thank you to
Kara-Lee for all the extra care and thoughtfulness in filling our
Molly's special paw heart once again. I know it is not an easy task.
Thank you so much!!
Now our Royals are also reunited in their place holders next to my heart forever more.
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| Where I go my dogs always come along |
Thank you for allowing us to share your space.
We will love you forever and ever.
Mommy and Daddy and Lady May
XOX
1 comment:
My heart aches reading this post. Those of us who have been blessed by our furry loved ones, and who have felt the tremendous unconditional love each and every day, and who have had to accept that our sweet souls don't live as long as we do, know the pain of letting go. It is immense and seemingly impossible. Yet it's the final huge gift of love we must provide.
My wish for you is that your pain will get a bit easier to bear and that remembering the millions of wonderful smiley moments will take over so that you can start smiling through the tears. I am slowly starting to get there myself, you two will as well.
To have been loved this deeply is such a gift to be forever treasured.
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